Page Fifteen

When I woke it was bright, lights everywhere. I slowly sat up and looked around as my eyes focused. Then I saw the doctors and nurses in their blue and white coats. I looked at my hands and arms. I had a needle in each arm. My eyes went wide as I realized what had happened. I yanked out the needles then found my clothes on a chair close by. I changed then while running followed the signs that led the way out. I had only gotten down the hall and around the corner when I ran right into Jake.

“Jenna you should be sleeping.”

“How dare you bring me here!” I growled.

“I’m sorry Jenna but this was Marc’s idea.”

“And you listened to him? I told him I was not coming here!”

I jumped to my feet and ran around him but he grabbed me and lifted me off the floor. He lifted me over his shoulder. I tried to fight his grip as he took me back to the bed I was in. I kept repeating that I was not going to stand for this and he would laugh since I was not standing. When we got back to the bed I was in, a doctor stuck I needle in my arm, drugged me and then Jake let me go. I ran for it. But I collapsed before I even got to the end of the hall.

I had nightmares of my past. I shook and flinched as I felt the pain again. I could feel my heart racing and hear my uneven breathing. I wanted to wake up. I was screaming at myself to wake but could not. The nightmares continued.

I was going to hurt both Marc and Jake when I woke. I could not believe they did this to me. They knew my answer but still went against what I wished. I could feel hot tears running down my face as I dreamt but still could not wake myself up. I would not be able to sleep for days after this. Once one nightmare ended another started. I wanted the nightmares to stop and the pain to end but neither happened. My tears burned my eyes but I could not bring myself to wipe them away.

Suddenly I jolted awake. I was sitting up now so I looked around. I could see a doctor with Jake whispering at the door of my room. The pain in my arm was gone but there was now a cast on it. There was a needle in my other arm but I did not have the strength to pull them out. I watched the doctor and Jake as my sight cleared. I was glad the nightmares and the pain were gone but I was still mad at Jake and Marc for what they did. I slowly lifted my free hand to wipe away the tears I had been crying but they were not there. They were either wiped away for me or had dried up. I started wondering how long I had been passed out for. The doctor walked off and Jake pulled up a chair next to me to sit in.

“How do you feel?” His voice calm but full of sadness.

“No more pain. “I replied.

“That’s good. The bullet had gone into the bone so when you tried to walk on it the bone snapped and the bullet poisoned your blood making you sick.” He explained.

“I see. I’m sorry for how I acted. I’m truly grateful. I feel much better but where is Marc. You said this was his idea so why is he not here?”

“He’s in the waiting room for two reasons. One because he’s not allowed back here. I only am because I told them I was your father. Two because he could not live with the fact that you were being put through so much pain because of him. He hates himself for going against what you wanted but he would hurt more if you died. I talked to the doctor to let him visit so he should be here soon.”

“Thank you for everything.” I smiled.

I watched him smile also, “You’re worth it.”

I watched as he got up and left. A moment later Marc walked in. He looked depressed. His eyes never lifted from the floor as he walked to my side. I could not see his eyes because his hair was in the way. I would have moved it but I was too weak to.

“I’m sorry for doing this to you but I could not live with the thought of you no longer around.” His voice was full of sadness and I could tell this was hard for him.

“I’m fine. I was acting selfishly and I know it. Do not try to convince me otherwise because you will not change my mind but I’m glad you did this for me. The pain is gone and I feel so much better.” I smiled.

He still did not look at me. Slowly my smile faded and I kept quiet. I did not know what to say or do. I looked over at the water that was dripping into the tube which led to the needle in my arm. I moved and slowly pulled at the needle not strong enough to pull it out.

“I want to go home. Please. I just want to be home.” I begged Marc.

I finally pulled the need out and slowly stood but collapsed to the floor. I heard Marc run to me but I told him I was fine. He helped me back to my feet anyway. I put my arm over his shoulder as he wrapped his around my waist. He helped me back onto the bed.

“You should wait until you have your strength back.”

“How long have I been here?”

“Two days.”

“Really? It feels like only a few hours.”

“You’ve been out for most of the time.”

“That makes since then. I do have one other question. When do I get my clothes back?”

“Whenever the doctor brings them back.”

I sighed, “Guess I wait.”

During the rest of the day Jake and Marc stayed with me except the times they left to walk around, eat or do where else they wanted. I ate soup and soon I could walk around again. By nightfall the doctor let me have my clothes back and said I could leave. I changed as fast as I could, smiling. I was no longer scared of the hospital but I still did not like being there. Once I was dressed the three of us walked to Marc’s car but Jake drove.

I could tell Marc had not slept the whole time I was in the hospital and I was going to make sure he went to sleep as soon as we got back to the house but he was sleeping just a few minutes after leaving the parking lot. I smiled to myself, glad he was sleeping. I looked out my window and realized all the stuff I would not have lived to see if it was not for Marc. I owed my life to him and from then on I was going to think of the pack more often.

By the time we got home I was also sleeping. I felt Jake wake me. I climbed out of the back of the car and walked to my room as Marc went to his. Jake walked to Leon’s office for something but I was not worried. I guessed he was either telling Leon everything or leaving a note about it. Slowly walking down the hall to my room I remembered the first time I had ever walked down this hall. The first time realizing I had a home and a family that would love me. A smile spread across my face as I visioned myself as a kid walking down the hall to my room. My eyes lit up when I walked into my new room and finding out Leon had given me everything I told him I wanted to have one day. I saw his smile. The first time he truly looked like my father.

I laid down on my bed, with tears running down my face. My tears were not of sadness but of joy. I was in the place I belonged. I could not leave with Sara and her pack. She was my sister but this was my home. My true place. I cried myself to sleep that night and for the first time I dreamt of a happy future.